A Relationship with God

Me & my wife would like to appreciate your support during these past several
days. 

The baby (a v. lovely daughter!!) was delivered in our home and my wife and
her were sent immediately by the paramedics to the closet hospital.  The baby
was suspected to have died shortly before/after delivery.


The doctor does not know why it happened.  They said 'early labor' is an
unconquered area that the doctors has not overcome.   We just realize that now
most doctors still use many primitive principles in the hospital in a mother's
delivery of a baby.  Many basic ways to handle a bably's delivery hasn't
changed since age-old.


Once the water breaks inside the mother's womb too early in the pregnancy, the
baby has no choice but to come out--prematurely.  No medical science is
ableyet to keep the baby alive inside the mother's womb once breakage occurs. 
The baby has to be immediately taken out to the world to be taken care or it
will
die inside the womb w/o the water's nutuition.

And if the baby isn't developed well enough to live outside, it will suffocate
from lack of oxygen, or being infected, or grow with other malfunctions.  Even
if we were able to have the baby stay in intensive care, it is a matter of the
baby struggling with death--and eventually die.

I was just at home that day to pick up my wife to the hospital because of some
suspected symptoms.  The paramedics came shortly after the sudden delivery
started--and with difficulty, they helped to have the baby come to the
world--probably just died.  My wife and the baby was rushed to the closest
hospital then.  It was a miracle that my wife survived, for anything could
have happened and since the delivery was not in the hospital, my wife might
die as a side-effect.

God wasn't absent.  The folks in the ambulance preached to us about God.  My
wife asked them: 'Are you Christians?'  They said ,'No, we're not.'  The old
nurse in the hospital cried with us.  Another nurse found a radio for us,
tuning to a  Christian channel for us... .

Right now, my wife is stablized, but we cry a lot when the night is quiet... .


It is quite true that it has been especially difficult for both of us.

Everyday the baby's mom talks to the baby in the womb, sing hymns to her, chat
w/ her, speaks Bible to her, tuned to Christian radio to listen to Christian
teachings w/her.   Her mom 'strolled' with her in the park, touching the baby
from the mom's growing tummy, 

We brought her to parks, 'watching' the little ducks swimming over ponds,
'showing' her how the little creatures look, checking out other kids playing
around, listening to the ice-crem man's ding-dong sounds--thinking when she
grows up we'll bring her sweety ice-cream, saying 'we love her' during bedtime
every night and during midnight, saying 'I miss her' when I go to work.  

We brought her to eat Roast Duck, Chinese buns, Chinese lunch boxes,
Viet/Chinese Rice noodles, walk along shopping center, we tell her when I am
pressing on the brake--so not to scare her, and her mom comfort her when I
overwork... .

The baby is 'no-more.'  We still want to say we love her before bedtime, but
it's no more.  All in a glimpse, the baby is gone from this world.  Too
shocked for us to even notice.  I would look outside the window, looking into
the sky, finding things vague, feeling fearful to touch the sky.  Life's
meaning seems 'void,' unable to comprehend.


We seem to be changed by this--permanently.  Life is no longer the same. 
Everything seems different.  We are afraid to hug each other--for the baby is
gone from the womb--and from this life--so fast.


    We don't really know why and we just have to put our faith in God. As Paul
exhorted us, "And we know that God causes all things to work together for good
to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose."
(Romans 8:28, NAS) We no longer ask, "Why?" or "Why me?" Instead, we said,
"Lord, when you  put me in this situation you have your reasons and purpose.

By faith, we see that God created heaven and earth for a purpose.
By faith, we see that God created us for a purpose.
By faith, we know that everything comes not for an incidence, but for a
purpose.

It is easy to give all the answers, BUT

-- it is exactly "by FAITH" that a Christian is brave enough to be in touch
with what has happend,

ito ask 'why',
to not understand why it happens,
to ask God why all that happens,
to talk to God about everything that has happened,
to talk to God that we don't understand Him,


It's perfectly ok to ask--simply because we trust Him so much.  

Faith is not a superficial answer to problems in life,
---> It is a relationship, a dialogue with a 'living God.'

For it is simply because we love Him so much that  we want to converse and
speak with God...,

And for 
it is in asking that we receive,
it is in seeking that we find,
it is in knocking...that the 'door' is opened,

...to a newer meaning of living--not because we have found an answer,

But because we have * talked * to God. 

Christianity isn't a set of petty religious rituals--do's & dont's and
beautiful answers, 

but  A relationship.  A trust.  A friendship.

I have tried but hard emotionally to think--What is  LIFE?

This might be the place where me & my wife will find God talking to us...:

(The time before our Lord Jesus went to the Cross, where Jesus would be
departing from this life and go to heaven after death)

John 14 (The chapter of Comfort)

*...Believe in God, believe also in Me. *

For there are many mansions in My Father's house.... I go to prepare a place
for you... and I will come back to receive you..., so that where I am, where
you will be also.

vs 27.  I leave my Peace to you.  My peace I give unto you.

I guess...Hope and healing from above finally borne...when human grief is
'fully expressed'--before the living God of Hope.

Many brothers and sisters have been with us, eagerly pouring out their hearts
to pray for her 'life'...,

And while it is hard to comprehend--God has 'answered' all our childlike
prayers-- the best gift to our lovely daughter-- in Heaven, where the Heavenly
Father's house is.  There she will see God face to face, full of Glory and the
many good things in Heaven.